我爱你~~要幸福哦~~！！

我真的会挨到无法自拔吗？？ 看来这是真的~我真的很怕这样的自己~还蛮恐怖的吧~！
我很怕迷失自己，迷失自己的观念~但我还想尝试不一样的东西~像现在正拥有着一段新恋情~也算是我第一次的恋情~呵呵~应该开开心心的嘛~可是我们好想也太快了吧~者见过一次面就酱了~真不是我的风格~哈哈~因为我根本都没想过会发生这样的事情~所以难免会怀疑咯~

第一次在我生日当天一起吃饭~根绝还不赖~还蛮舒服的~。。。（不过以后还真的要迟快点~以免让人久等了~）呵呵~~星期日他就text过来问我可以做她的女朋友吗。。。我那时真的被那问题吓呆了~那时，我就在想~既然有一个新机会~为何不试一试~ 其实也被他的诚恳打动了点点~所以就在礼拜一正式答应他~呵呵~~今天算是我们的第6天，可是感觉像我们已认识蛮久了，而且跟他在一起没有负担。。。还可以互玩，互斗嘴，互想念对方，真的很开心~ ^^ 他真的很贴心~还时常来找我~而我却怕他麻烦偶尔就拒绝了~呵呵~~开心开心~ 我很喜欢靠在他的肩膀~不知怎么感觉特别舒服。。。特别有安全感~ 不过他还蛮贪玩的~bluek~ 跟他在一个起就不舍得分开了~很像麦芽糖哦~哈哈！！谢谢你，陪我这么多天。。虽然是一阵子，不过还是很感激你愿意来陪我~我一直都不敢说出这句话，因为需要付出代价。。。可是现在我想我可以确确实实地说“宝贝~我爱你”~！！！ 我会珍惜我们的一切~加油哦~也谢谢朋友们的祝福哦~呵呵~~爱死你们了啦~~ ^^

wednesday he came to eat lunch with me also~ ^^ and also Friday noon time~ drove me out to Kepong Station 1 to have lunch~ ^^ happie happie~

shud go out for dinner at thursday de~ but he last minute only tell me bout it~ and my mom cooked the portion for me also~ so oni decided to meet on Friday noon since he's goin to digital mall to do sumthing also~ hehe~

today he came to find me again~ after his exam~~ ^^ so happy~~
so he waited outside my housing area~ i drove out....then i brought him to my working place~ the animal clinic~ parked my car there then he drove me to eat lunch with him~
coz that time is around 11am so i suggested to go to Bukit Tinggi Aeon loo~ since its quite near my house~ oni 10 mins drive~ so we went there~ play the basketball thingy~ XD~ so funny lar~ n kinda tired also~ ^^
then we go and eat lunch lorh~ i'm stil full lar~ but i cant waste food so muz eat all lorh~ ><
then we walked around a lil bit then he send me back le~ we oni spent 2 hours together~ he rili wants me to watch movie with him but i cant~ i'm sorry~~!! i will watch with you on monday de~ as u promised me dy~ ^^

well....another surprise from IP~ juz now he juz sent me a comment...
"erm ip arr...starting now,i'll only post comment to you if got any special events lorh...next time we chat through message ya...erm...hehe...don't ask me why lah...i got my own reason...don't worry,since i read the secret,i'm almost totally changed my mind and thinking...will try to change it totally from bad to good...keke...then now you say i good bo?hehe...good de i'll maintain de...don't worry...hehe...."
wat does it mean?? why so sudden?? what happen between us??! will our friendship starting to change?? how come sounds so sad??!! isit becoz of the book called ??!!
i rili would wanna noe~ but i scared i cant tahan....so rather leave it~ sobz~
so since he wants it that way....i will respect him~ juz hope for the best lar~ take care!!

today should be another happy day for me.....but suddenly got this massive shock~ haiz~

today went out to tung shin~ but today slightly different than usual~
coz William is coming with me....i mean we meet at Tung Shin~ ^^
then after that i leave my car there n sit William's car to go Pavillion~ XD~
we ate our breakfast then go for a movie " The Coffin"~ kinda scary but kinda boring too~ duno why~ me n William keep on laughing but i'm scared of the ghostly effect so keep hiding beside him~feel so nice n warm nia~ XD~

after watching we went to his house lorh~ as its too early to retrieve my medicine~ n dun wnna go to other shopping complex~ so went to his house~ luckily his hse no ppl~ except the maid~ XD~ so i followed him up to his room~ chat + play around~ XD~ plus my voice not recover also~ rili funny lar~ we played bluetooth tennis match~ chatting~ hugging~ sleeping together but no kissing~ XD~ so basically juz playing around lorh~ feel so nice when i'm with him~ feel so comfortable~ feel so warm~ and then he asked me can i be his gf.....i din answer him straightaway by words~ but i used my body language to express....so wont that embarassing mar~ but he keep on hugging me~ want me to tell him wats my answer~ but i keep on saying i duno~ coz i rili scared bout the consequences~ but now i'm sure that i like him liao~ ^^
and then around 4.30pm oni we left his house....he fetched me to Tung Shin again~ then he went back le~ ^^ how nice~ stil ask me wanna teman me anot~ haha~ no need lar~ rili thanks for the day~ i rili enjoyed n had a great fun time with u~ miz ya!!!
good luck in ur exam tmr n next few weeks~ ^^ keep in touch~

i rili had a wonderful bday ~ thanks to all the bday wishes from all of my frens~ love u all and miz u all~ muackz~

IP called me also then he played a bday song by playing the guitar~ i got a shocked~ i din noe that IP play guitar~ haha! he rili gave me a huge surprise~ he stil hvn gimme another one yet~ is the self-created song for me~ ^^ hopefully i can stil manage to hear from him soon~

i had a wonderful dinner and night with William~ thanks alot ya~ ^^ muackz~~~ love ya~
he came from ampang~ jz to fetch me at pj~ and send me to kl "look out point" for dinner~
how nice~ so nice kl view~ but too bad its drizzling if not can sit outside de~ but then so shy lar~ coz 1st time meet him~ 1st time sit his car "green Myvi" ~ 1st time eating dinner with him~ everything 1st time~ so happy~ ^^ had a fun great night together~

well~~ IP said he will come to celebrate my birthday~ when he told me at first~ i rili got a massive shock~ thanks for stil remembering me ya~ hehe~ rili excited n nervous~ but then ytd i received a call from him~ he told me he cant make it coz his aunt is coming over to his hse~ so.....lidat lorh~ kinda sad n disappointed de~ but cant do anything also~ juz hope he can come over to kl on december again loo~ gotta wait~ sigh~~ thought can see him again~ haha!! guess my expectation is too high~ so leads to disappointment~

"The higher the expectations...The higher we hope,the more disappointed we'll be..."

he rili gave me alot of surprise huh~ sometimes give me a call lar~ (but now lesser dy)... sometimes gimme those shocking news lar~ hehe~ though is small small matter~ but.... feel so warming~hee~
so ngam both of us wanna change to a same song for friendster~ ^^ wakkakaka~ we love the song because the song's lyric is so meaningful~ rili suits my mood now~ hehe~
actually i wanna write more de~~ but...haiz~ next time ba~~ very hard to express rite now~ :P

有时候。。。我真的很不甘心我们只是很好的朋友。。。
我看，我真的中了他的毒。。。唉，我又不敢说出自己的感觉。。。怕那时候连朋友都不能维持那不就更糟了吗？？！！ 还是别闹了。。。顺其自然。。。
不过还是很开心她还记得我咯，我还以为他忙到忘了呢~原来他跑去度假了~呵呵。。。我真的想太多了那时候。。。

呜呜呜。。。怎么办啊~我怕我真的会越采越深~真的有些不甘心我们只是IP~不过还是随缘吧~看到他失落，还蛮担心的。。。看到他开心，自然而然心情就好转了~
前几天他在friendster回复我的comments。。。都不像以前的风格。。。我就在那一刻开始怀疑我们的交情就真的到此结束了吗？！我还忍不住宛转地问他我们是不是有问题。。。我也以为我有太敏感了~隔了一天他又回复我。。。告诉我说别误会。。。因为那时他在别的地方，很少机会能上网，所以就简单式得留言给我。。。听了他一番解释，我也感到有些内疚了~

嗯。。。他也告诉我说。。。他放弃追求那女孩子了，因为他觉得他没机会。。真不敢相信~他好像等了满久的。。。不过无论如何，我还是会支持他的~呵呵~~永远都会~
嗯。。。他也告诉我他病得蛮严重。。。看了两次医生才慢慢好转~要多多照顾自己噢~~（病毒啊~别再缠着他了~）。。。 祝你早日康复哦~呵呵~

well~ i received the booklet that my sis sent me from Australia~
its all about short courses~~

currently decided to study music~ although at first i was reluctant to go for it~ coz i wanna try something else~~ but their entry requirements is quite high~ like my music course they need 2 years of full time working experience~ so....din think much of other courses also~ and my working experience is oni 1 year and 9 months~ till next year January only fully 2 years~
but havent rili confirm bout it yet~ need to contact those admissions service first whether i'm qualified to go for it anot~ the latest to confirm is october 31st....sobz~ haiz~

Monday after seeing Doctor in Tung Shin~ in my usual routine i will go to Times Square~ but this time slightly different~ my parents will meet me thr n teman me to eat lunch!! ^^ happie~
i reach there earlier than them by 1 and the 1/2 hours~ so i spent my time in Borders~ i spend almost 1 hour in the english session~

and so when i go to the chinese session....to go n search for those entertainment thingy~ a guy was seating thr~ reading those design magazines and when he saw me...his expression was like ......errr....i also duno how to describe~ jz have a rili weird feeling that time coz he stares at me for quite some time!!!! and i din noe him at all!! then all of the sudden he began to talk to me!!! i froze thr of coz~ scare mar~ someone u duno (stranger) suddenly talk to you like u knew him lidat~ so scary!!!

he talked bout his career... asked me wat is my age n doin wat like usual~ slightly of his family matter.... n talked bout future wife....wat is he goin to do~ i rili rili got a shock~ summore he ajak me to sit down~ oh no~ i said i'm waiting for someone~ haha!! (i din tell him i'm waiting for my parents of coz~ as he asked whether i'm waiting for my bf n i said no~ )
then after a brief talk for 1/2 hour~(he's talking most of the time) i forgot to check my phone~ my dad called me 8 times but i din pick it up coz i forgot to set ~ so he gave me his namecard n he is a fashion designer~~ ooo~~~

but then at that moment my dad saw me~~ n i was like scrambling away from the scene~ i tried to push my dad away...not to let him see who am i talking to but i failed~ haha!! i quickly walked to the place we are suppose to eat our lunch~ :P i din dare to ask wat he saw dat time but he thought i was pak-to....== no lar~~~!!! i dint!!!!

today went to pavillion~ n we reach thr early so we went to GSC n try to get n watch Eagle Eye~ haha!! rili nice movie~~ same with death race also~ but this is more thrill n suspense~ haha!!! love it!! shud go n watch~ coz its worth~ duno wat happen to me nowadays~ started to watch all this action thingys le~~ last time not rili fancy~ XD wakkakka!!!

Since sunday~ i cant hear anything from the laptop~ i duno whether is the sound system having the prob~ or my sis overuse the speaker by playing meetoto almost everyday~ or its me using it everynight to play my songs???!!!!
sigh~ guess need to service it after raya~~~
hmm..... suppose to meet IP on last last Saturday when he came to PJ for a few days~ but we both also din plan much bout it so end up lidat~ din meet at all~ then after that he went back to Melaka n help his father to run the bussiness i think~ hehe...
anyway~ wish everyone having a good holiday week~~

every week i will taste different kind of taste in my medicine~ its not fixed u know~ the doctor examined u.....and then only define which kind of herbal suits me.....coz i'm going for the chinese medication so thats why sometimes the smell is good but its hard to drink~~or another way round~ the smell was not good but it taste good~ haha!! but thats seldom happen... :P

till now i still prefer the very first time i drank that~ taste really like normal herbal tea~ kinda sweet but kinda bitter at the back~

but now....its completely different~ its too hard for me to swallow >< normally i took few days to get use to the taste but i duno this week when i can get use to it~

my taste bud will be going bad soon (or another way round...shud be better??!!)~ coz took so much effort to taste so many different kind of flavors every week for my medicine~~ haha~!!

haha~~ suddenly felt like blogging in this new blog~ :P
for this blog neh~ hmm....i will write anything because i am listening to the deepest in my heart~ :P

today was a nice cool day~ work in the vet~ hmm....ntg much also~ but chat alot with dr loo~ although this few weeks is abit quiet but we are stil havin fun....chatting lar~~ checking up dogs n stuffs~ but then time stil flies~~

today was in a very good mood i duno why~ haha!! guess i'm kinda happy but i duno what am i happy-ing about~ :P can anyone tell me??!

oh ya~ juz now~ brought puggy to sit in my car n i drove around my house area~ she likes it though a lil scare~ haha!! at least she got experience to sit by herself loo~~ anyway she's enjoying looking everywhere in my car....especially when i pull the monkey that LG Wei Sin gave me~ haha!! she looks so curious~ :P

LOL~~ Puggy big big gal lo~ 6 months old dy loo~ time for spaying loo.... hope she wont on heat so soon~ :P